My Heart

There is something deep in my heart
It cries to be heard from the soul
It is an aching voice that is shut in a bottle
It pushes forward but gets kicked down
It longs for something to complete it
It is lost in the darkness of fear and doubt

There is something deep in my heart
It hopes to become something
It drives to pursue love and mercy
It is desperate for life
It craves for something that this world can never offer
It desires to be accepted

There is something deep in my heart
It cries out to God to be saved
It is empty without the spirit of God
It is lost in the ocean with the rest of the world
It will not make it past this darkness
It is crying for its Savior to save it

There is something deep in my heart
It is fighting for life
It is searching for intimacy with the living God
It is in desperation for air to breath
It wants to be free
It thirsts for unending water

There is something deep in my heart
It is the core and being of who it is
There is something so deep in my heart
That I could never explain
But that I desire God
That I be near Him always

What is this? It is all that I am
How can I explain this feeling in my heart?
When I don’t even understand it myself?

Oh God I cry out to You! Where are You?
Why is it so hard to describe how I feel?

It is a desire to know You God!




Is this the end?
Is this where it all stops?
It doesn’t seem my mind will bend
And then my head wants to pop
This raging fear of everything being lost
Wishing this were some sad twisted dream
Not being able to wake
Not being able to wake

It can’t be the end!
It seems as if it is but there is that faint hope
It is so far and doubtful
Why does it seem this is the end
But yet the beginning of a new
The very blood in my body shakes
It seems so odd this view
I always considered this life fulfilled
Then it hits me!
I have nothing!

I scream for some kind of an answer
My soul is in terror of being nothing
My life looks small and weightless
I look to God for help
Is there an answer?
Is this some kind of phase I can’t escape?
Will I see the life I always knew?
Or is there something new and altogether…
Quite absorbing and uplifting?
Then it hits me!
God is my all and all!

Everything! Everything! Everything!
Is nothing compared to my Lord and Savior
I see now
That this new revelation is quite dangerous
But it is some new step of faith in uncharted lands
My mind is grasping so little of this new revelation
But even that is mind blowing

I have been missing something that is indescribable
It has no words to explain its depth
It is something that very few people ever stumble upon
It is a faith of a new kind
A faith that does not need reason
It only has faith in the unseen
Can a man describe something that has nagged on him?
Something on his heart for so long?
There are no words to say this faith
It is something so new and fresh
It scares the living daylights out of me!

There is something deep in my heart
It says that I have treaded upon dangerous faith
A faith that man only dreams about
Where nothing in the world can compare…
To the glory of the Almighty God!

I have come to faith that scares me
But excites me
For I have nothing but God!

Indeed there is something deep in my heart
It is the longing to go deeper and deeper

Yes, this is new and dangerous faith
It is what God wants of us and more

To War!